kalliel: (Default)
Heya! My name is [personal profile] kalliel. I've been happily engaged with Supernatural & its fandom since 2009. :) I read & write fan fiction--mostly glass-half-empty Winchester-centric gen. My genre preferences never made it past H: I adore HORROR & HURT/COMFORT more than is strictly healthy. Most of it is tag!fic, or stand-alone case!fic. Or it's about Meg. My FIC MASTERLIST can be found here.

Other interests (gen or otherwise): fics with tongues, gunfights, fence-jumping, shitty food, descriptions of clothing, demons choosing vessels, vessel!Dean/Michael!mindfuck, Wincest, Sam/Ruby, Jo/Dean, Dean/Christian, Dean/OMC, Pamela/OFC, Meg/Roy/Walt (OT3!), Meg/Dean, Meg/Sam, Meg/Crowley, Alistair/Dean, Clairestiel/Dean, & Dean/Lisa.

♥ friending is open & always welcome! ♥
kalliel: (wincest)
My Christmas gift to myself: Spending some time with my loved ones! First up, my flannel babies, whom I miss very much. <333 Four hours of messy self-indulgence, all for meeeeeee. Dean POV & Sam POV, set amorphously in S12 sometime. Dean-centric.

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kalliel: (armstrong)
The Fast 8 title was just announced (yes, it had its own, separate announcement... distinct from the announcement of the time/date of the trailer release AND the TRAILER FOR THE TRAILER) and I'm crying-laughing. XDDD Fast titles are those things that are completely irrelevant yet Incredibly Important, because let's be real now--how dumb is the title 2 Fast 2 Furious? Yet how iconic is the title, 2 Fast 2 Furious?

In case you were wondering, the titles of the Fast franchise go like this:

The Fast and the Furious
2 Fast 2 Furious
The Fast and the Furious: Tokyo Drift
Fast and Furious
Fast 5
Fast and Furious 6 (it tried to call itself Furious 6, but NO ONE calls it that)
Furious 7 (because if at first you don't succeed, try, try again!)



And all I can think of is furious fates, like these ladies:

I haven't seen 12x07 yet, and all I know about 12x08 is the title: my preemptive summary of the episode, based on what I know about the episode title, and the title of Fast 8. Spoiler for title, and 12x05. )

I could probably make a killing as an Illuminati conspiracist. XD
kalliel: (corn)
This year, my calendar features photographs of exploding appliances, and I love it dearly. Alas, it is not one of the bargain designs this year, so I decided I'd make my own calendar, using key images from each month of 2016 so that when I look at it I'll remember what memories I was making that same month, last year.

So I was like, okay, January, Crystal and I passed prelims and we took photos of us and a shitton of books. Cool!

But then I was like, uhhhhh. Right. February. March. Right, those existed. I... have no photos and no memory of either of these months. XP

So I was like... Well, I know which SPN episodes aired those months. MAYBE I'LL JUST USE CAPS FROM THOSE...

#relevant tag is relevant
kalliel: (meg)
Title: La Chasse
Genre: het, darkfic, 12x03 "The Foundry" tag
Pairings: sorta Rowena/Lucifer, past Rowena/OMC, brief Sam/Amelia
Characters: Rowena (POV), Lucifer; mentions of Castiel, Sam, Dean, actual Nick, actual Vince Vincente, and hellhounds
Word Count: ~2300
Rating: R
Warnings: sexualized violence, disturbing imagery
Notes: I have no good explanation for this. ETA 22 December: Thanks Anon, for help with the French!! <3
Summary: Lucifer struggles with his new vessel, and Rowena plots her escape. Laid bare before her are all of Lucifer's sloppy, messy bits, carried over from vessels previous: Nick's memories, Castiel's. And most tantalizing of all, Sam Winchester's.

Imagine what she could do if she could find that sloppy bit of Sam in Satan. )

kalliel: (fandom text)
Wait, heh, whoa--okay, so after they fail to kill two out of the three dragons in Portland, they go to some town in Rhode Island where Soulless!Sam fucked the entire population over AND THEN opt not to track down any of the like, five Arachne that just got bred, AND THEN scratch the wall, AND THEN the one dude they saved in their next case ended up dying anyway, AND they get an innocent bystander impaled by a giant glass shard.


Poor bbs, life is just a hot mess of incessant failure. <3 Which isn't to say that isn't always kind of true for them, but I think in this particular stretch of episodes it might actually be narratively intentional. I love S6!

Oh, also. Does anyone remember me in like, July, talking about this gifset that had put together all of the times Lisa had opened the door and found Dean on the other side, and how her expression shifted? IT'S NOT A GIFSET. (I mean, I'm sure it is. But that's not what I know it from.)

SHOW did that. SHOW put together that montage, of Lisa being happy(ish, and also confused) to being worried to being slightly dismayed.

My heart, your dagger, SPN. Your dagger. DID I MENTION I LOVE S6.
kalliel: (where's perry)
"99 Times Sam & Dean Were Fucking Awful at Their Job"


Though I suppose they had from Portland all the way back to Sioux Falls to have a deep conversation about why that was a good game plan. Maybe, like lightning, dragons only strike the same place once. (Or unlike lightning, really.) Maybe Portland is spared forevermore from dragons!

Does this mean there are still at least two dragons mucking around circa 2016? Or does Eve eat them later or what?

Also, hi! I'm continuing my rewatch, which was tabled in August and frankly should have stayed that way until 2017. But, you know.

This is only the third time I've ever seen 6x12, and I haven't seen it since it aired, because I didn't really like it back then. Still not really down with virgins or dragons, but my opinion of the rest of it is much improved. (Incidentally, this is also true of 5x12--the body swap episode--which I've decided I actually really like, idk!! This remains untrue of 6x09, the fairy episode. One of these days, though. One of these days!
kalliel: (meg)
I saw this end-of-year writing meme, and as one does when one is procrastinating, I started filling it out preemptively for 2016. One of the questions was, Did you take any writing risks this year? What did you learn from them?

So I Googled "writing risks fiction." The first suggestion was "kill a character."

Which... I think we may need to recalibrate the definition of risk. XP Because I can only name two points, off the tope of my head, where I've felt like killing a character in a fic might have been a genuinely risky decision.

For me, a writing risk might be:

Challenging or unpalatable representations of characters and ships. Not in the "go as dark as possible" sense, but that edge of discomfort that's as close to "normal" or "easily accepted characterization" as possible, so that the reader can't say to themselves 'well, I'm specifically reading darkfic, of course it's going to be like this' but instead they have to think, wait, hold up--what if it's the character/the pairing, and not a privilege of the genre? Or not even something that's dark, necessarily--but something that, in whatever direction, really pushes what you know and what can be known about the character/ship in question.

Troubling well-loved tropes might also be considered "risks." Like, what if ye olde "blanket scenario" (you know, there characters get snowed in and need to huddle together under one blanket for warmth) led to mutiny and cannibalism--AND IT WASN'T A HORRORFIC? Or what if [insert typical horror trope here] was actually genuinely adorable, and it wasn't a crackfic? Though on second thought, these seem less "risky" they are good creative exercise. (Shoutout to [livejournal.com profile] spnspiration, which held a challenge along these lines a few years ago!)

Using any of the experimental tropes listed in the tags of [livejournal.com profile] spnspiration might be considered risky, I suppose. But imho "off the norm" isn't the same as a risk. Quick poll: As writers, do you feel like you're taking a risk when you write in a strange POV, or do something stylistically odd? And if you do, can you identify the stakes? What's actually at risk?

The stuff I mentioned first, though--I think that's where I see the real risk. Because that's not a "wow, self, did you really have to omit all the punctuation in this fic?" risk, which is really just a stylistic exercise. It's short-term.

But if you're going to push character/ship somewhere genuinely challenging/delicate/precise, then the stakes get higher.

Of course, you run the risk of incensing readers who disagree with what you're doing, either to your face or elsewhere. Which, as I've said, is terrifying; the Internet is vile. XP

But even if you ignore that, you're putting your relationship with that character/ship on the table. It's between you and them, and if you're really gonna go for something, and try to push the limits of characterization/the ship, there are far more ways to go wrong than right. And even if you're right, it might not feel that way. And like, maybe it's as temporary an experiment as a stylistic exercise, and just for that one fic--but is it? You've changed your relationship with that character/ship forever, even if you go right back to writing them the way you always have before. And maybe you can't--maybe now it's messy, or even mangled, and it doesn't go back.

I feel like in fandom, where we're producing so many stories--largely shortform, generally more than one per person [whether you're reading or writing], largely without regard for whether a character is or isn't dead in canon--killing a character isn't a terrible risk. There's always gonna be a next story, or a previous one. (Plus, it's SPN, so. Resurrection!) I'm not saying character death isn't impactful--I'm just saying that in fandom, it doesn't carry risk the way it might if you were writing a single novel, which is one story, and those characters' only story.

But pushing, stressing, fundamentally changing your relationship with a character (or ship)? That's the point where fandom's prolific eternity doesn't diminish, but rather amps up that risk. Because then it's not just that you have the opportunity to write these characters/ships over and over again--you're going to. You just are. And if you keep pushing, it's going to be different every time, and what you are to each other (you and your character, or your ship) is never going to be the same again.

But I guess that scares me less than writing and realizing you're only writing the same thing over and over again. (I worry about this constantly. /O\) I write both Sam and Dean in a constant state of fear from all sides.

How do you define "writing risk," flist? Have you taken any this year? Can you point to any specific examples?

Oh, an additional "writing risks" I just thought of:

Writing a pairing/character/trope you've never written for the first time, PARTICULARLY if it's a pairing/character/trope lots of people write all the time

But other than that, like, I think SPN itself has kind of accident-proofed us for most of the usual suspects. SPN itself engages in so much writerly risk doing things like "blend genres" or "bend reality" or "set it in a strange place" or even what I mentioned above, in terms of subverting tropes/genres it kind of means we've already got all the keys to the kingdom. XD And if Show softballs something or another and fandom comes up with a more radicalized version of that thing, maybe there's still risk there, but there's probably also this sense of like, "yupppp, that's the fam!"
kalliel: (corn)
So, as I sat down to lunch and prepared to watch that Cars 3 trailer for like the sixth time today...

The best part is, I didn't even plan this. IT WAS SIMPLY MEANT TO BE.
kalliel: (creepy)
[livejournal.com profile] spn_reversebang art previews are here! The range of media, characters, and potential story behind all of these is so wonderful. There's creepy, there's fantastical, there's adorable, there's sexy--and adventuresome! There's also a wonderful showing of marine creatures, just sayin'--from tentacles to mermen to cute Dean/Cas with OTTERS. And lovely forest pieces (featuring Winchesters in scenarios that aren't great for them but are GREAT for us)! And sci-fi AUs. Creepy bloodplay manips. And one where at first glance my first reaction was "ooh South African SPN AU"--even though the picture itself and its description definitely don't suggest South Africa on closer observation. IT WAS JUST A THOUGHT. (I'm an idiot.) XP

Do I have your attention yet?

Even if you don't plan to write for the challenge, check the art out anyway! Maybe you'll change your mind. And if not, you'll get to see a beautifully put together gallery of all the talent this fandom as at its disposal--and you'll know who to look for when time comes for posting publicly. Maybe you'll find some new artists to follow!

Оригинал взят у [livejournal.com profile] amberdreams в Art previews are up!
Originally posted by [livejournal.com profile] spnreversemod at Art previews are up!
The big day is finally here! All of you eager authors out there get to peek (and be tempted by) some wonderful art!

If we've inadvertently forgotten anyone or you see a problem, shoot us a PM or email us at spnreversemod@gmail.com ASAP.

Remember, no reposting anywhere else without permission of the artist.

A few of the images may not be safe for work, so view with care. Claims will commence Saturday, November 26, 10:00 am EST.

So, without further ado, here is the 2016 SPN RB art!

SPN Art Part 1 | SPN Art Part 2 | RPF Art | Either Art

Password = "artpreview"
(Since the post is password-protected, art cannot be reblogged)
SPN | RPF | Either

Note: Do not submit claims to this post.

kalliel: (wwdd)
OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD. [livejournal.com profile] alethiometry alerted me to the existence of this gem of a thing:


I tend to be hypercritical of Pixar as a studio, because I love them a lot and I know what they're capable of and they don't often hit their own standard (I haven't loved any of the Pixar movies released since 2010). I don't think Cars 3 is really the film to bank on for that--and I say this as someone whose FAVORITE Pixar film is Cars, but acknowledges that this is a very separate category from BEST Pixar film--but who knows.



kalliel: (free fall)
Title: Talking Points
Genre: gen, headspace, 12x06 "Celebrating the Life of Asa Fox" tag
Characters: Dean (POV), Sam; Mary, Jody
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: ~1500
Summary: After breakfast.

You know her now like you lived John then. )

kalliel: (BB2013)
Still not over (never over!) my love of 12x06. <333 I actually ended up rewatching those first 16 minutes because I liked them so much. Then I got interrupted yet again, but I told myself that if I didn't just suck it up and pick up where I'd left off I was never going to get past the first sixteen minutes. BUT LIKE. SO MUCH LOVE. I really want to write fic for it but I can't right now, so I'm just gonna screech about that fact because expressions of yearning are more palatable than the alternative. (The alternative being "DEAR STUDENTS, WHY DID NONE OF YOU ANSWER THE PROMPT.")

♥ ♥ ♥ LORRAINE ♥ ♥ ♥
♥ ♥ ♥ JODY ♥ ♥ ♥
♥ ♥ ♥ "SO MYSTERIOUS" MARY ♥ ♥ ♥
♥ ♥ ♥ BUCKY ♥ ♥ ♥
♥ ♥ ♥ LORRAINE ♥ ♥ ♥
♥ ♥ ♥ LORRAINE ♥ ♥ ♥
♥ ♥ ♥ LORRAINE ♥ ♥ ♥

I'm so glad we don't have an episode this week, because I really want to watch this one again. XD


Nov. 20th, 2016 10:39 pm
kalliel: (fandom text)
All I want to do is watch this episode over and over again. @____@ <3
kalliel: (meg)
Signs you've been listening to your Pandora station too long: You started with Hans Zimmer and ended up with Led Zeppelin. WTF.
kalliel: (Default)
I meant to only watch the "Then" of 12x06 and ended up watching the entire first sixteen minutes and I'm in looooooove (and also fucked, because I can't stop thinking about it and I have work I need to be doing).



Pie Party!

Nov. 19th, 2016 09:20 am
kalliel: (winry)
Man, I'm on a roll with the SPN-themed foods. First a week's worth of tomato soup, and now pies upon pies.

Last night, my symposium co-coordinator and I held a pie-themed thank-you party for our symposium volunteers, so I made a chocolate cheesecake pie and we got two massive chicken pot pies from Costco. Ultimately, my co-coordinator and I baked a fancy dancy pumpkin pie:

Isn't it pretty? :3 (I can guarantee you it looked way less pretty when there were just a bunch of random Californias on it, with cranberries rolling every which way. The rosemary makes it.)

We had leftover crust, so I made them into little shapes to put on top. But LOL, the only cookie cutter I own is California-shaped, so I guess this is some kind of weird passive-aggressive California pie. Maybe Mary sent it from California, from within [livejournal.com profile] anactoria's lovely fic, "...And the Deep Blue Sea," which I just read. <3 Either that or it's some kind of even-more-passive-aggressive CalExit pie, ahahaha.

Pies are too much work for me, though. Like, I understand the appeal of flaky, buttery crust, but COME ON, MAN.


Nov. 18th, 2016 01:14 pm
kalliel: (where's perry)
Typing for posterity: Just one of those weeks where, with no external provocation whatsoever, I feel VISCERAL JOY and just like, bodily, thrilling anticipation at the prospect of a new SPN episode. <33333

Also, if Samuel in S6 was like, blah blah blah, ancestors chopping heads off vampires on the Mayflower, what were the vampires hoping to find in the US? More places to disperse than on a small island nation? Were they escaping monster persecution in Britain? WERE THEY ALSO PURITAN? (How does Puritanism refract in conjunction with vampirism? Are vampires more inclined to favor a literal interpretation of the Eucharist?)

And if the Men of Letters was originally a British thing (I'm just assuming they originated there because some branch of hunters apparently also did. Native hunters probably operate on a completely different cosmology than most of the hunters SPN has focused on), does that mean there are MoL chapters in other former British colonies/sites of empire and imperialism? Like, is there a Hong Kong MoL? Indian MoL? Australian MoL? And would they operate in tandem with or in colonial opposition to monster hunters/intellectuals already extant in these countries beforehand?
kalliel: (free fall)
Title: Watchful
Genre: gen, 11x23 "Alpha and Omega" coda, Team Free Will
Characters: Castiel (POV); Sam, Dean, Antonia, Mary, angelic & Heavenly others
Word Count: ~10,300
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: blasphemy, non-linear angelic POV
Notes: Tremendous thanks to [livejournal.com profile] alethiometry for providing integral feedback and keeping this fic from the scrap pile. <3 Written for [livejournal.com profile] emmatheslayer for [livejournal.com profile] spn_summergen 2016, originally posted here.
Summary: The first words, when God and the Darkness go: Mary Winchester is freed. And let's just say there's a reason Ash could never track her down before--six hundred sixty-six of them, actually.

But then, this is only what Castiel thinks. Perhaps his is not a story to tell.

[Or on AO3.]

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